Sometimes I wear my feelings on my sleeve. I have done this my whole life, but I have got better about it in the past few years. My problem is if what I am feeling is not coming out of my mouth it is written all over my face. Yeah my face speaks a little too loudly sometimes. I think part of the reason for this is the fact I cannot see other people’s faces clearly, but I know others who do not have this issue who are in the same situation. I am also prone to say what I mean and mean what I say. People do not tend to believe or respect this though. They think I must be joking when in actuality I am dead serious.
The problem is I sometimes get hurt because I think the same is true of others.
Why is that a bad thing and isn’t it a shame we have to be so on guard in today’s world? Even when we are in “safe” zones like Christian sites and with Christian friends we still have to stay on guard because some people put on a really good show just so they can take advantage of people. Some people will say exactly what they think you want to hear in order to build trust so they can reel you in to a situation that is not good for you but is all good for them. Sometimes they do unthinkable things and I am just supposed to sit there and be okay with that because we are all Christians. I’m telling you I just can’t do it.
I had a Christmas party at my house for my Sunday school class and we did the Chinese gift exchange where you can steal gifts. One person got a gift that they really loved and the whole time I was thinking, “You have to know someone is going to steal that blanket”. Sure enough someone did. She had to open a replacement gift with a knife and when she grumbled about the new gift she got the person who had “stollen” the blanket made some smart remark. Guess what she did...she stuck the knife in the woman’s face. My house my knife so I said something. She pointed it a little closer. REALLY!!!!! Imagine if it hadn’t been a Sunday school party. I just don’t have time for such foolishness. As a person with limited vision I believe in keeping it real...but not that real!!!